Have you
ever wondered?
What it
would be like to stand there, on that cold, rainy day, and see your own
funeral.
First, the
people.
Who would
come? Who would cry?
Who would
speak of things that you would have never remembered saying?
Who spoke of
things you never forgot?
And they
would all wear black; all get into black, just for you.
And when the
tumbling thunders of a wrathful One roll in,
And when the
diminutive lull of the funeral procession come rippling down the river,
And when all
is said, all is done.
What
remains?
Tears?
Rocks? Dirt?
Or an
untapped chance?
When will I
die? Will it be before I see any happiness? Or after I see all that can connive?
And I hope
that you will be standing in the crowd with
A black scarf,
in your black cloth, now, and for the first time, imperfect, wet, wrinkled,
stained with salty tear.
And will
bring you emotion you had never felt before?
I can see it
now.
You were
trekking from anywhere to everywhere.
And you
come, with struggle, to say one last goodbye.
One last
chance.
One chance
unused.
I would hope
that I’ve brought you happiness, love, peace, and beneficial passion.
I would hope
you’d shed a single tear, containing the fire of our love.
My love.
Did it never
cross your thoughts?
That one
day, when the wind whips and the sky roars, they’ll be a black lake of cloth
and tear.
It’ll be in
the middle of suburbia, where moms and child go to soccer, and husband finishes
at 5, only to find no food in the fridge.
And the
storm will carry you to sadness.
To profound
compassion that you will never feel again.
Accept my
love.
Just as you
had not for the past 100 years.
And will not
for at least 1000 more.
Had it ever occurred
to you?
That one
day.
In the midst
of life, mundane and spectacular,
There will
be a black lake, just for you.