Friday, October 21, 2011

A Monster in Me

Let me explain.
I want the best for you, yes.
But among the flowerbed in my belly is a small pit.

Dark and black.
Jealously, rage, envy soon dribble down my lips.
I say good.
Bad, says the monster in me.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

These Hills

An old man 
with a streak or two of gray, and an omnipresent, fathoming grin.
Yes. He pressed the keys of his piano.
They made sounds.
Funny, those sounds sounded like more than sounds. Like words. Like a painting.
And those sounds lifted him up to the highest hill top overlooking the lackadaisical bunch of elk.
They glanced at him, and saw an elk. 

He descended. 
A clique of aloof hummingbirds fluttered about.
Yes, very querulous they were, snobby.
But that elk tucked his legs under him as he slightly jumped.
In less time than it will take you to read this, he was a 
fully and perfectly formed hummingbird.
They gladly gave him a seat at the table.
And so on.
A horse with a majestic mane capering and leaping down a field.
A leaf with vibrant hues
A native with painted eyebrows and a melodic dancing song.
That man was.

But that the youth.
Sex, Rock 'N Roll, Drugs, Drinks
All that was taboo, frowned upon 
was that boy's to enjoy.
He ran up that hill backwards, fell, and took a drink.
He climbed that hill drunk, high.
The animals saw a panther in his eyes.
A possession.
An obsession.
Shoulders uneven, arms akimbo like he was better than rules and the
hair on his head chopped in ridiculous places.

But that boy made it to the top of the hill the same time as the old man made it to the bottom.
Yet, they helped each other.
The old man gave him a smile from the bottom.
The boy gave him a smile.
They pretend to be friends.
Like honey laced with cayenne, these hills bring us up, break us down, split us apart, pour everything out, shove it back in, and call it a lesson.
Someday, these hills will stop.
But not today.
Or tomorrow.

Noticed

It's not those rows and columns of As.
Those are
old news, repeating consistently.
No. Not when I hit a perfect low F, strong, full,
and robust.
Or when
I break thirty five seconds on my breaststroke 50.
It's when I catch you looking at me.

Those eyes.
They light my heart as a match lights a bomb.
And it will explode
into raging passion.

Cool down.
And settle.

Yes, all good things come to an end.
But for now, let's feel
that bomb's enormous heat.
Because for once
that little fat
kid is now skinny.

For once, I can breathe fully.
For once, I was noticed.



Sunday, October 9, 2011

Autumn Bliss

The sun puffs its chest from behind the
already auburn leaves.
He and she leave, nervous hand in sweaty palm.
Moccasins gently crush the chestnut leaves,
and they steal glances at the other.
Cheeks painted crimson with
bashfulness and innocence.

A photo snapped in the most perfect dew sprinkled
field.
Sweet, timeless tones woven from a wooden guitar,
lost in the vast lavender expanse of atmosphere.

Go with him, you'll be forever young.
Forever sweet.
Captured in the rapture
of autumn bliss.